I have met the enemy and it is me!
Posted on 14 June 2010
The universe has an interesting way of dealing with me when I get this way. It lets me stew in my misery, sometimes for years, before it presents a cataclysmic event whereby I must let go of the old. This often comes in the form of a betrayal or separation, and although it hurts me very deeply, I’m never surprised when it finally comes. The only anger I feel is at myself for being too lazy to get away from the situation before it took a bite out of my heart, soul, mind, bank account or reputation. T.S. Eliot put it best when he said, “If you haven’t the strength to impose your own terms upon life, you must accept the terms life offers.”
I have met the enemy and it is me! The good news is that even though I was slow to let go of holding on to things such as jobs, people, and material things such as houses, I did get better letting go of the known for the greater unknown as the years progressed. Guess you could say that I built up my faith through experience. I knew that when I let go of something, I no longer feared crashing and burning. Instead, I know I’ll be catapulted to a much higher level, like a trapeze artist flying through the air. I stopped judging others and, most importantly, myself. I stopped asking why things weren’t as they should be and realized that the only thing I was going to change about a stale and detrimental situation was me!
I’m confident that I can change and consistently reinvent myself. I know that in listening to my inner voice and doing the right thing, greater opportunities come my way; greater than anything I could have anticipated or planned for. And even if they are just for a month or a year, they’ll function as stepping stones to the next gift I open myself up to receive.
Seriously, don't be your own worst enemy.