A Tale of Two Rabbits
Posted on 08 March 2010
When it came time to make the change, I was torn. No matter how much I prayed for direction or clarity, I had both cities on my radar. I knew the change I had to make. I had already promised my earthly and spiritual father I would do that and I intended to keep that promise. Was I chasing two rabbits? Was I worshipping two masters? Was I being disobedient? But I dared to pray a bold prayer. I prayed that somehow, someway, I could still be allowed to enjoy and work in both towns.
And God granted that prayer. It was so obvious once I focused on the fact that God does want to give us the delights of our hearts. Psalm 37:4 says, "Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart." And this was my delight; to be able to be close to my biological family and grow the tremendous legacy my father left us, as well as to spend time with my second family in the Midwest enjoying the marvelous relationships and connections we had started.
I just got back from a weekend in Saint Louis and it was such a time of blessing and renewal. A lot has changed in the past year. Despite the tough economic times, I have several close friends who have moved up into better positions. I have one that is finally enjoying fulfilling her full time passion of pastorship. I have another that opened her own business and I got to patronize her gorgeous establishment. I saw old neighbors pass by while I was working in my city garden and waved at cars driving by. As I write this, I am back in Pennsylvania and am tired, but truly happy. In fact, I could say I am actually so tired of being happy, it’s wearing me out!