I know, you must read on because you are not sure if I am really going to blog about my love life, but I gotta tell you, it’s amazing. In fact, I have never had a more energized, actualized, romanticized, conceptualized love affair with my life than at this very moment.
I hit a milestone this past week and I am so darn excited I could leap out of my skin….and I was already pretty loose in it already! I hit the half-century mark! And the reason I am so happy is that I now finally feel ready to conduct my next 50 year journey around the solar system knowing exactly how I want it done!
I am well aware of the many horrible mistakes I made, the pain I caused, and the idiotic things I did in my first 50 years. I am no longer interested in looking back at them. I have worked under the disapproval of various bosses who didn’t value me for the first 50 years. I am no longer constrained by what someone thinks of my skill set. I know what I offer; I won’t tolerate not being fully utilized and I won’t compromise my principles.
I am single; have been for a long time. There were many times during my first 50 years when I had someone in my life but never felt more alone or hurt. When I page through family albums, looking back over the past decades, very few, if any, of the people in the pictures are still in my life, yet I feel happier and more love in my heart today than at any other time.
Lastly, but most importantly, I am at peace with my priorities and finally have the confidence to enforce any and all boundaries that were so sorely missing during my first 50 years. The older I get the less I care what people think about me, hence the more I enjoy life! I can finally tell it like it is, in love, and never have a second thought about it! And isn’t that what we longed for during our younger, more insecure years?
So how’s your love life? Is it exhilarating?? Mind numbing?? Full of living out your most ardent passions? If not, it sure can be. I am a liver and
a lover of life! I finally cleaned out all of the toxins in my world and am free to move about the universe. Each and every one of us can do this. It’s not up to any person or job to come and fill some self-imposed void. It’s completely up to you!
I regularly ask sales clerks and cashiers, “How’s your love life?” Then, I have to explain that the Ultra Bride toothpaste commercials from the 1970s used that line to imply that their product could resolve a lackluster love life. Ahhhh, isn’t it great to be old enough to remember so much history from firsthand experience? Welcome to The Second Fifty Club, Tracey. The view is wonderful from here!
Rosemary, thank you so much for the read, the comment and the never ending encouragement! I love the quote you posted. When I used to stand up for my beliefs folks would call me self righteous. Now i see that’s a tool for the weak and I’m not falling for that gross misrepresentation anymore. Bottom line is they didn’t respect me or themselves, but that only took me 50 years to figure out. Better late than never:-) Love to you my dear divine sister xxxoxxxo
Another awesome post – thank you – here is a quote I love: “Cutting people out of my life does not mean that I hate them, nor does it mean I don’t forgive them; it simply means I Respect me.”
You just have to move on and let the past be the past!!
Remember you are amazing, you are awesome, you are intelligent, you are talented, you are beautiful, you are Love, you are Loved and you are Divine!
Make it a beautiful day, Rosemary Evans
Wonderful, my dear Ms. Jones! The word “liberation” has been so devalued by invalid use, it’s hard to take seriously any more. But you have redeemed that word with your wonderful statement here— you are talkin’ the real deal, and no mistake!
I loved the line: “I finally cleaned out all of the toxins in my world and am free to move about the universe.” Wowzer. Great lesson there: you’ve gotta jettison all the negativity, and so often that means no longer hanging out with the wrong people. Great post— if I see a comet streaking overhead, I’ll know it’s you!! : )
Well coming from you tremendous Meg, that means the world! Thank you sister xxxoxxxo
YOU GO GIRL!!! Reading this post made me happy! Thanks for sharing a piece of you because you are pretty awesome!! Hugs!
I love it! And It most certainly is Jim:) Thanks for the welcome to the Second Fifty Club. I think it will be the most tremendous 50 yet!!